Something About Love~

Before we start, you give me a promise that you will only look at me..
Love me, and care for me...
However, when you want to break up..
You tell me that you make a wrong choice and we are not suitable as we are not in the same world...

What about the time we spent together?..
Will it be a happy memory...
Or a nightmare to me..
As I still have feeling for you...
But i have to released you..
As I don't want you to think that I am selfish..
Because I want to leave a good impression in your heart...

Eventhough, I know I will suffer during this time..
To try to forget you...
As it will be a very hard task for me...
Since I am still deeply in love with you..

In my daily life...
I will still remember the time we spent together...
The road we used to walk, the restaurant we spent our time, or the story that we share ...
However, all these is useless now...
Since, in your eyes...
It will all be meaningless..

Eventhough, if anything happen to me..
You also will not care..
Since now your heart is not with me anymore...

Actually...
I don't know why this will happen..
Since we had a really happy time together...
Why did you have a change of heart?
Is it because what I did is still not enough?...
Or maybe because you are sick of me already...

But, I know..
What I ask now is no use...
Since you already make up your mind...
I can't make you to change your decision...
Eventhough I beg you...

But Why...
Why must you be so cruel towards me..
This is the question that I always wanted to ask...
However, I don't have the courage..
As I don't want to be hurt again by your words...

It will take a long time for me to forget you..
Or maybe a lifetime...
But..
You wouldn't care...
As now you have your own freedom..
To do what you like..
And to be with who you like...

While, I have to suffer alone at here...
Struggling on how to forget you..
So that I can live a new life...
Without you in it...

Father God, please help me...
I really wanted to forget him..
So that I won't suffer anymore..
Each time I saw him..
My heart will hurt so badly..
Just like being cut by a knife...
I really want to free from this feeling..
I want to live for myself and not for him anymore...
I don't want to be a fool...
Waste my tears on him..
As it is not worth it...

When i looked back what had happen..
I feel relieved as he has teach me a lesson that I will not forget...
He taught me that...
A person feeling can change like a wind...
So, it will be very hard not to get hurt...

THUS,
IF WE WANT TO FALL IN LOVE..
WE MUST HAVE HEART PREPARATION...
AS WE DON'T KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN...
SO WE MUST BE PREPARED TO BE HURT...